童年不是為了長大成人而存在的

以前十分喜歡一首歌的開頭，是M.J.的「Childhood」，第一句是「Have you seen my Childhood?」，你有看到過我的童年嗎？這是我一直想問的，就這樣不斷獨自地哼著這句，在上學的路中，在離群獨對大海的時候，在深夜無眠工作的寧靜時刻，在孤清繁華的大街中踱步，在喝光咖啡時，都不斷獨自地哼著這句。

本人並不是因為沒有別人的童年而傷心，說句心底話，我倒挺喜歡這樣的童年。我不喜歡學小提琴，或在親友面前起舞歌唱而受盡讚賞；不喜歡跟大群小傢伙東竄西竄，成群結黨；也不喜歡看書寫詩；可以的話，我祇做自己喜歡做的事。或許本人從未為將來做過任何打算，母親也沒有明顯的介入，祇是讓我自己去想，偶爾說兩句，但從不過於阻撓。這樣的童年有點危險，有點傷感，但其實也蠻好的，蠻好的。

有人寫道，「童年不是為了長大成人而存在的，它是為了童年本身。」這句倒是實話，現在的成長時段，就是為了這時段而存在，不是為了將來，也不是為了成長，背負將來的生活等於抹殺了生活，不是嗎？

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for the world that I come from
'Cause I've been looking around
In the lost and found of my heart...
No one understands me
They view it as such strange eccentricities...
'Cause I keep kidding around
Like a child, but pardon me...

People say I'm not okay
'Cause I love such elementary things...
It's been my fate to compensate,
for the ChildhoodI've never known...

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like pirates and adventurous dreams,
Of conquest and kings on the throne...

Before you judge me, try hard to love me,
Look within your heart then ask,
Have you seen my Childhood?
People say I'm strange that way
'Cause I love such elementary things,
It's been my fate to compensate,
For the Childhood I've never known...

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like fantastical stories to share
The dreams I would dare, watch me fly...

Before you judge me, try hard to love me.
The painful youth I've had

Have you seen my Childhood....